I'm finding this site to be an increasingly frustrating beast. From the pointless rules to the far too generalized search functions. I have to waste my time posting in a journal that no one reads in order to get help finding things or finding out if anyone has ever seen, read, or heard of things instead of posting in the forums and getting the broadest perspective I can. I'm not for everyone, I know that. I can be difficult and a downright pain in the arse. I tend to be offensive and uncaring as well so naturally only a few people who I've spoken with, worked with, or spent a lot of time being a royal moron with pay any attention to my journal, hell I delete all the journal entries in my messages without reading them, so I assume everyone else does most of the time.

OK Enough with that!

Time for an update!

I am still working in comics and still writing my own things. I am not posting them here right now because A) I don't feel right about posting my work here when I was not given explicit permission to do so, and B) A lot of my personal writing would really, really offend some people here, and finally C) When I'm feeling as bleak and dark as I am, I turn to old stories posted by folks that haven't posted anything on the sites I frequent in years, and I rip them off and plagiarize the hell out of them and as such will not post them. They are vast improvements on the original or I go into such a direction as to make the work completely unrecognizable and entirely my own, only taking inspiration from the work or works, and sometimes I take from so many works and mix and match and mingle and mangle until it is all mine with only minor hints and references to the original work.
I won't lie, I'm not the most original writer out there. I generally write sci-fi and fantasy. This stuff has been done to death. It is the job of a writer to tell a new story or an old story in a new way. There are only so many ways you can tell 'Romeo and Juliet' or 'Hamlet' before you start treading on another authors toes.
I have been writing more than I have in a long time for personal enjoyment or catharsis or whatever. It's gotten darker and a lot more evil and adult in content. I've been writing, in my off time, stories of Abuse, Rape, Murder, and Betrayal of the worst kind. I've had a bleak year so far. ever since November my personal life has taken a turn I simply could not see coming and my frustration and irritation with the situation is coming out in my writing and I don't feel comfortable exposing myself to the masses like that just yet.
Right now I am working more on the business end of things and trying to learn how to not screw up that side of things. I'm doing a lot of research for the guys I work for. They are some of the most solid and outstanding folks I've ever worked for or with. While I have had to let some of my creator owned stuff go by the wayside for now as I no longer have a regular gig, I am getting some serious hands on, on the fly training and I gotta say, I am getting much better as a script writer. Getting my vision across in text is something I've struggled with since day one, often not giving my artists enough to work with or too much to realistically put into a frame or panel. I would write scenes as I saw them in my head and expect the artist to either get it or do it how they want and hope I was happy with the end result.
Such was the case with Altregard. While I was ecstatic over the artwork, I did not have a proper script to give my artist and so he had to make a lot of stuff up on his own and I think as a result the comic suffered, even though it was solid artwork and solid storytelling, without the proper framework it fell flat and I take full responsibility for that. I am now working on a new set of stories based on that planet. I may even rework the original story one day and make it better and more reflective of my own vision with less outside influence, even though I welcome that kind of thing most of the time. I have made mistakes and I am learning from them. I am going back to the basics and back to where I started as a writer with my new skills and techniques.

I am still looking for an artists for my vision of the Animorphs. There are a lot of direct translations to comic book form out there. While I applaud the folks who are doing that and keeping the original stories out there, I think it is time for a new take on the franchise. Darker, more mature, and more satisfying as far as storytelling goes. Things need to change. I see what I'm trying to do with the franchise as the same as what authors like R.A. Salvatore and Ed Greenwood are doing to correct massive and unpopular changes within the Dungeons and Dragons Forgotten Realms universe and bring things about in such a way as to satisfy fans and corporate alike. I am taking things that went wrong and making them right. I'm not going to change everything cannon. I'm perfectly fine with the series as it is, but there are things that are too disjointed, things that seem out of character for specific characters, and I will fill holes and gaps in the story that were never properly explained. I may not meet the Scholastic deadline, but with any luck the right people will see the work and it will get out there.

I won't lie, when it comes to my stuff, I let a lot of my ego get into the work. The same goes for what I love. I love the Animorphs and want to see it more popular than ever, but there are things that need to be addressed and changed from one media to another that have never been addressed.

I know that this may be one of my longest journals, if not the longest, ever. I just had a lot I felt the need to say. There are still things left to be addressed.

Oh and if anyone wants an idea of what I am up to and what to expect from me in the future, I am currently working on a bit of sci-fi/horror erotica called Snakes. It was written by another author a looong time ago on the greyarchive.org and is no longer up there. It has survived in an abridged version on other sites by so many different aliases I am left to conclude that the original author is no longer active and cannot be found. When I am done with it, I will post it here alongside the original because I believe it should be preserved as an example of a great premise for mediocre erotica.

I want to warn you, I am the last person on earth who should be handling erotica in any form. Even worse is my MegaMan fanfic where I do what a lot of fans do, blend the worlds and various incarnations into one cohesive unit. It is an action romance akin to Die Hard, The English Patient, Star-Wars, Robocop, the whole Galaxy Express 999/Meatel saga, and Cowboy Bebop. So tragic, bloody, funny, sweet, and bad ass. I don't think it's any good yet, It has a good base as all I really do is combine the mythologies a bit, It's mostly MegaMan X with bits and pieces of the original series and aspects of latter series and a hint of Legends mixed in. Basically I take what I like from those and create a semi canonical story line out of it. There is only one MegaMan to me and his name is Rock!

Ok hows that for a ride eh?